Nick and I began as friends, at first
neither of us realized that deep inside we were fighting feelings for each
other. My problem was the age difference, his problem was facing life
in prison. He was always so kind and loving toward everyone.
He never wanted to ruffle feathers, you see he would always be the one to
sacrifice things for himself to avoid any type of negativity between him and
others. He was always so polite and well mannered and I was drawn to
the way he loved and cared for his mother. And he always seemed to
fight for the under dog. Saying, "She is so sweet she just needs attention",
protecting people from others saying things like I just don't like her, she's
annoying. When people really made him upset he would just get them with
intelligent talk.
Like once this man kept hitting on me, this is after
we began seeing each other, and Nick just went over and said constant persistence
is not the way to get a beautiful woman to go out with you, leaving the man
speechless. He didn't come over like jealous boyfriend fighting for
his property.
He has let me be my own person and has let me make
my own decisions. He always tried to understand me not judging me
on my past mistakes. And the way he looked out for his little brother
was so impressive. He always put others first even when he had
more then enough reason to be selfish.
As we prepared for the trial he wrote me a letter and
gave one to his brother to open ONLY if he got the full 60 years and he wanted
him to read it to his family. It contained plans for the family to
tell the younger kids that he had died in a car accident and told the family
how visits would not be good for anyone and how wonderful and thankful he
felt for everyone's help and support but urged them to go on with their lives
as if he had passed away. My letter told me to think of him as a wonderful
dream I had had and do know that he would never stop loving me.
The day he left for his trial I stayed with him in
the morning then when he came time to leave he gave me the letter and told
me to not open it unless he was sentenced to life. He looked at me
and started crying, b/c of the trial it was difficult for him to open up
b/c he may have had to go away, so sometimes he held feelings back to spare
me and himself, but mostly to spare me. He just looked at me and said
I have so much I want to say to you. I saw the love in his eyes and
just said I knew what he wanted to say. I felt it, he loved me.
I tried not to read the letter and went to do laundry. I finally couldn't
take it and I read it. Later that night I asked him to ask his mother
if I could come up out of respect since it was a family issue. And as
soon as she said Yes I was on my way down.
The one real reason I fell for Nick was his ability
to give and keep giving. The love in his heart for everyone who takes
the time to listen to him and believe in him. He expects nothing for
what he does for you and is totally grateful for what you do for him.
Although you may not know it he already loves you and Joe, he just loves that
is what he does. Some sons look after their mothers but not like Nick
does, he goes above and beyond what any son would do for their mother.
Even when he was angry with his mother for leaving his dad, he never skipped
a beat, he always hugged and kissed his mother and still to this day would
die for her and anyone he loves. Nick loves and he gives that is who
he is. There is not one mean bone in his body.
Everyone says things happen for a reason I think God
knew Nick needed the military to make it in prison if it wasn't for that
training he would never have made it through the first month without killing
himself.. Once he told me he had thought about driving his mothers Kia off
the biggest cliff he could find...Do you know why he didn't do it?
His mother, he knew it would kill his mother. To him his life was over
he had lost everything but he chose to live in misery for his mother.
And that is why I love Nick.
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