I am basically addressing you
young people. Those of you who have made the wrong choices because it was
cool at the time. Well, lets break for a minute and go back to a while at
approximately
This young man, the age of a child, a child I say because he is going to
an adult world for 50 years to life. Now just take a few minutes to think
about this. Your young imaginations cannot conceive of what this young
man is headed into. I'm not quite sure about the system he will be
entering but the are basically all alike. He is 16. a high school student.
One would think he is a bright young man and academically pretty smart.
Well, let me be the nearer of bad news, this type of knowledge will not
be enough to fend off the daily life and routine of prison. My guess is
that he will spend some time in protective custody. Easily there could be
friends of friends of those that McWilliams shot. I delivered some
messages over the past about you little punk ass tough guys. What in the name
of God are you thinking about. Is life where you are living that
miserable and ugly that you want to turn into a killer, at 16. Were
situations that unstable which caused this degree of hatred, brief hatred that
caused this. I understand to that there wasn't there to warn you or share
with you what faced you after you were caught. Well, I'm here to share with you
all of the reasons you should seriously be considering other choices.
I mentioned predators. Let's begin with the sexual type predators.
These guys are relentless, never, never stop looking at other men's
asses. All men you see. They are just like John Wayne Gacey, have
to have sex. Think about this carefully. You enter an adult prison,
one that doesn't have a good monitoring system by correctional staff.
Two or three of these very serious, bandits, enter your cell forcibly.
You are thrown on your bed, held firmly by two of them while the third
shove a 10 inch penis up your ass. You pass out from the pain.
Before you recover, one of the others had taken his place. Until
all three have had sex with you. Yes, you have to report it because you
are hurt badly. Now this exists. This could happen again.
Doing a 50 year sentence can't be done in protective custody. In the case of
this young man, he has 50 long, lonely, depressing, isolated years to reflect
on his actions. Reflect on the grief and pain caused to so many people.
The actions by the courts should make you aware that you will be punished
as an adult. For 32 years now I've been in living hell. I can't help but
to ask myself now, with all you young people trying to get yourself into
prisons, do I want to come out there and live out the the remainder of my life.
You want to be a member of this club. Do you have any freaking idea
how expensive the dues are. The only difference with this and all others,
you pay dues daily. This club forces changes in you lives that wouldn't
ordinarily be a choice or volunteered action.
Coming here young with a really beautiful positive attitude , I'll do what I
have to do to and leave. Oh no you won't. Leave you will.
Now here comes the tricky part.
As I sit here now, writing, thinking about you people watching sheets being
exchanged, knowing that most of the sheets aren't clean. You guys coming
from the streets with various kinds of diseases, Homosexuality runs
rampant. You see these sheets washed. Sure they are returned once a
week with the clean appearance. You aren't sure that the person living in
this cage built for one has two of you in it, that he doesn't have full blown
AIDS.
You are so green to this, most games that are run on you, most times you lose
at. Coming into a world without a clue of what in the hell is going on.
Do you want to be used. Do you really want to have to call home
with, " Mom, Dad, the guys I thought were my buddies took all of my stuff
and money. They told me I would be looked after. Sure you will.
Every time you hear something, the predators will be there.
Believe this statistic or not, this is totally up to you. Up
to 85% of the people in these places DO NOT CARE ABOUT YOU. Predators of
all kinds live here. As the old saying goes, wolves dressed in sheep's'
clothing.
When you enter a shopping mall what you are surrounded by? A very high
rate of energy. Especially at Christmas time. The excitement of
children. The scents of the many stores, open air markets. The smell of
new leather and cloth. Brightly lit stores. Seeing the happiness of a
young girl or woman with her man in a jewelry store getting her engagement
ring. These moments are priceless. Walking hand and hand with your
little girl friend. And it goes on. Do me a favor. Just walk
out in the middle of the mall, stop dead still, listen to the life. Go to
school, look at your positive surroundings. The positive desire and
dedication to learn. The boys, maybe you are one of them, need a particular GPA
to play sports.
Is this what it is all about. You were put off the Varsity football team
due to a dip in grades. THe appreciation received is no longer. Now
you have slid into the mindset of a loser. A special girl was lost.
Giving up is the answer. Hanging out now, setting yourself up for
trouble. What are you now, 14, 16? And maybe you think life is
over!!? Well let me put you down with a little piece of news.
I have been in these shit house prisons for over 30 years. Recently
I turned 52 years old. I still play Volleyball with the youngest,
strongest athletes in the entire prison. From 1999 to 2001, I played 2 on
2. My partner and me, lost a grand total of 6 games.
He was 38. Yes, when I was young, I went through many ups and downs.
Times were much different. What is available to you now, technology
wasn't available then. May be I wouldn't have chosen the path I did.
Is life over for me, NOT IN THE LEAST, and do you know what, nor is it
for any of you. I for one do not want to see any of you come into any of
these places. Once you enter, your life is ruined.
Please, think. Think about it all. Is this what you really truly
want?? If you read this, have any questions, and I mean about anything, I
will be completely strait with you. E-mail the site you see this read
this on. My address should be available.
I will close with this. People, young and old, there is nothing cool of
funny about life inside these places. Always remember, you could become a
PREDATOR and you could be one NOW.
© Copyright 2002 Charlie Hatfield
LIFERS
IN A DYING SYSTEM by Charlie Hatfield
More
from Charlie at Surviving the System.
Hell Awaited by Charlie
Hatfield